Betsy Soler

Julie & Julia - Reflections

I hate to get personal on Tumblr but yesterday I felt utterly lost and confused. A relationship that (I thought) I had ended two years ago but never really put behind me came to a halt. A sudden, screeching, I-never-saw-that-coming stop. He wanted to “try different things.” So it goes.

I blame myself partially for letting things fester and go on longer than they should. But it’s OK. I know better now. 

And you’re probably asking yourself what does that have to do with Julie & Julia. Well, in the midst of my sad state of mind, I resorted to doing what girls do best: watch chick flicks. 

I promise this post is going somewhere. I swear. 

I saw Julie & Julia, which was sitting in my Netflix instant queue for at least five months. Good choice. I cried my heart out. As I watched the film, I saw myself onscreen. The emotions that were all too familiar. And then it suddenly clicked - I’ve gotten into the routine of being in a relationship and I’ve forgotten what is it exactly that I love to do. I don’t know what my passions are anymore. What happened to kayaking? And cooking? I love cooking given I have the time and ingredients. 

I think it’s time I refocus and work on figuring out what makes me happy. Life is too short to mope around and cry over him. It’s a new chapter. 

So here’s a toast to old lovers, cherished memories and the new ones to come. Cheers!